I ask you all, Is it better to have a little bit of happiness in your life, or a life of misery and depression?.
Know I most of you will frawn and look down on me and call me a whole heap of nasty names. Normally I would be one of you as well, disgusted and appalled that someone can do this to there partner.
But here I am doing just that. Looking to play around behind my partners back. Now before you go all nasty on me, please let me explain why I'm here.
Due to medical reasons, over the last 11 years my partner wasn't, and still isn't in a position to be intimate with me. At the beginning I was fine with it, I understood why and was accepting, but now after all these years I feel lonely, unwanted and get no appreciation for everything I do, as it's all about her.
I have put my life on hold, let my health decline and let go of all my friends, so I can be there for her and support her, still nothing in return.
I have talked to her about it several times and each time I ask for permission to explore outside our marriage, just so I can have a little be of happiness, and each time she said no, and just to be patient a little longer, as it will get better soon.
To this date nothing has changed. Now you are probably saying why am I still with her then, why haven't I left her and start a fresh. The answer to that is simple "she has no where to go, no way to support herself or look after herself with all her issues". I still love her enough, that I won't kick her out onto the street.
So I will ask again, now that you know why I'm here, "Do I live a life misery, or do I seek a little bit of happiness on here?"
